today was one of those yesterday-days, for i never really went to sleep last night. i've been really busy in the mind, unable to stop obsessively distracting myself from the present moment with 1000 tabs open, 30 different projects being worked on in tandem, etc, all in the quest of staying away from the ephemeral 'now' because- god forbid- if i were to take a moment to sit silently with myself, my thoughts, my feelings... i shudder at the thought. i am overwhelmed, i don't really have a secure living situation at the moment either, and my car (cough... house on wheels.. cough... infinity g37 2009) is currently broken down in the old hotel parking lot and i am virtually begging them not to tow it. i have no income! i am .... im doing it, im approaching the present moment. let me stop that for a moment.