NOLOVE
you have wandered into none other than a perilous sanctum constructed out of the darkest and most dubious parts of my digital and miasmic death-dance which has manifested itself online for many moons, 26 now- to be precise... 26... how ultimate time is. unwavering in its flow..
...and placed soundly in a jar called html, and gently placed on the shelf of neocities. the time in which i have worked on this place, this piece of my heart- it has truly been one of if not the Most difficult of times that i have ever had to saunter on through.
wandering souls find their way here through strange algorithms and stranger chance. some stay. most drift away like smoke through a cracked window. that's the nature of these digital spaces—transient, ephemeral, yet somehow eternal in their archived states.
it's a miracle i even made it out alive, truly. the acceleration protocol demands forward momentum at all costs—comfort zones destroyed, boundaries crossed, edges walked until they crumble beneath trembling feet.
this space exists as documentation. evidence of the journey through edge-walking and striving to boundary-breaking once again. beauty in the mundane. meaning in the ugliest corners of existence. welcome to the archive of a wandering soul.
if you've found yourself here, perhaps you understand the pull—that relentless gravity toward intensity, toward the uncomfortable truths that lurk at the edges of conventional existence. stay a while. leave your mark in the guestbook. become part of the record.
ABOUT
IDENTITY CORE
AGE: 27 F
LOCATION: us east Coast
STATUS: vagrant, minstrel, programmer, breaker-downer
PHILOSOPHY
radical ddissociation. edge-walking. biasless awareness as practice.
who am i? a wandering soul documenting the journey through intensity, acceleration, and edge-walking. someone who refuses to slow down, who can't stay still, who finds meaning in the relentless forward momentum. exploring the power of perception, subjectivity of reality. interested in tech/science, currently have a hobby of learning about the latest breakthroughs in particle physics and chinese-style quantum computing using lasers/light vs the western approach. broad spectrum of genuine interest. difficulty feeling real, or connecting with people. surrounded by fentanyl freka fiends and thieving criminal npc tier leeches. always, and i mean Always, on my laptop. addicted to fentanyl as a means to cope with my current reality/supposed partner whom i am limerated with, absolute infatuation, met with scorn, abuse, cruelty , false accusation projections. wont bore you wit more negativity. smile always. lonely hallucination machine..
THE DISCOMFORT PRINCIPLE
there's a point where you realize that comfort is the enemy. that staying still is dying. that the only way forward is through constant, relentless acceleration into the limits of your perceived comfort zone.. this isn't about being busy—it's about growth, evolution, learning and self enhancement by ant . about pushing harder, going further, refusing to accept the boundaries others have set.
acceleration means pushing past comfort zones. it means when everyone else slows down, you speed up. when others retreat to safety, you lean into the risk. when the path becomes comfortable, you find a harder one.
it's not sustainable in the traditional sense. it's not meant to be. it's about burning bright rather than lasting forever. about intensity over duration. about choosing the experience of being fully alive over the safety of merely surviving.
TECHNOLOGY
hardware hacking, entropy measurement, urban mapping, social infrastructure. building tools that enable acceleration and exploration.
PHILOSOPHY
accelerationism, absurdism, tulpamancy, remote viewing, perpetual dissociation, edge-walking, intensity as practice. questioning comfort, embracing discomfort, finding meaning in the mundane.
️ EXPLORATION
urban exploration, boundary-testing, limit-finding. physical and digital spaces where conventional beauty or mindwave dopamine hijacking don't apply.
DOCUMENTATION
journaling, archiving, evidence-gathering. creating records of the journey, markers of the path, proof of the acceleration.
CURRENT STATE
still accelerating. still pushing. still refusing to slow down. currently focused on: building social infrastructure for the independent web, measuring entropy in physical systems, mapping invisible urban infrastructure, and documenting the journey through edge-walking. always looking for the next boundary to cross, the next comfort zone to destroy, the next level of intensity to achieve.
this is intense by design. uncomfortable by intention. if you're reading this and feeling slightly unsettled—good. that means you're paying attention. this space documents the experience of pushing past normal boundaries, and that experience isn't meant to be comfortable.
but for those who recognize something in the intensity, who also feel the pull toward acceleration, who can't quite manage to stay still—welcome. you're not alone. there are others of us out here, pushing forward, refusing to slow down, documenting the journey. (im a neet, im not a normie... im not "successful" in the standard sense, im in an intense state of chronic isolation... im not REALLY out there pushing forward, nor accomplishing shit, nor having authentic human connection (except with my boyfriend). all i really do is rot. post on discord, try and study comp sci for "pre-med" and maintain a hail-mary that ill get into some prestigious school other than community college, and somehow find myself" for "medical school"..... only copious amounts of hard drugs keep me from the constant absolute and paralyzing TERROR.
PROJECTS
active experiments in acceleration, expression, and personification of the electronic. each project represents a different vector of exploration.
RESONATOR_ENTROPY
an ESP32-based entropy measurement device quantifying chaos and randomness as measurable forces in the physical world. where experimental hardware meets theoretical physics.
URBINDEX
hyperlocal mapping application for the urban explorer. label and rate abandoned buildings, water sources, power outlets, pathways. map the invisible infrastructure. intended for use by vagabonds, homeless individuals, travelers, vandals, and urbex enthusiasts.
→ github.com/numbpill3d/urbindex
CRON_COMPOSER
simple UI for composing cron jobs. making the arcane accessible. time-based automation without the syntax headaches.
→ numbpill3d.github.io/cron_composer/
→ github.com/numbpill3d/cron_composer
2133.LOL
a work-in-progress social media platform for webdevs and webmasters. building community infrastructure for the independent web. by developers, for developers.
→ 2133.lol [COMING SOON]
WIREBASE.CITY
another WIP social media site, this time for artists and webmasters. a digital city for creative collaboration. where art meets code meets community.
→ wirebase.city [IN DEVELOPMENT]
NOLOVE.NEOCITIES.ORG
this space. a digital sanctuary for my unbecoming, sorrow enigma. documentation of the journey through edge-walking and striving to boundary-breaking once again. beauty in the mundane. meaning in the ugliest.
→ nolove.neocities.org
PROJECT PHILOSOPHY
every project here serves the same purpose: acceleration. they are vehicles for pushing forward, tools for breaking through barriers, experiments in what becomes possible when you refuse to stay still.
from entropy measurement to urban mapping to social infrastructure—each represents a different angle of attack on the problem of stagnation. different tools for different terrains, all moving in the same direction: forward.
COLLABORATION
most projects are open source. contributions, forks, and collaborations welcome. check the GitHub repos for contribution guidelines. fellow wandering souls and tech/ai accelerationists always welcome.
JOURNAL
thoughts, observations, feelings, and documentation from the edge. raw and unfiltered transmission of the world i saunter throughout.
Latest entries are embedded below, or visit the link directly for the complete archive.
JOURNAL PHILOSOPHY
the journal exists as raw documentation. unedited, unpolished, uncomfortable. this isn't curated content for consumption—it's evidence. markers of the journey. proof of the acceleration.
entries might be intense. they might be uncomfortable. they might reveal more than is conventionally appropriate. that's the point. comfort is the enemy. polish is a lie. this is the real transmission from the edge.
ON JOURNALING AT THE EDGE
there's a point where you realize that documentation itself is a form of resistance. that writing down the uncomfortable truths, the intense experiences, the moments of boundary-crossing—that's its own kind of meditative sort of feel. that refusing to polish, refusing to make it palatable, refusing to smooth out the rough edges—that's where the real truth of my experience lives.
nothin about this journal here is preformative- a stark contrast to most of anything else i ever create or present to people, including my irl personae. this is stream of conciousness, unfiltered, and a bit trauma-laced at timed. i guess i should warn you about that. but pelase, do witness me, in my truest most primitive form. for when you see me, especially here, if you do not reject me, then i am not alone. thank you again, for being even this close...
GALLERY
visual documentation of the visceral thrashhing against darkness eternal. evidence from the edge. fragments of hollowing captured and archived. this is a slice of the NEON MAXIMA, from the rages of ELRIEL. dead girl's world of wandering souls epoch. 2133. revel, reveal, relent, and respite in these images of pure higher dimensional grimery and hedonism, visua.
VISUAL ARCHIVE
visual representations of my insanity, aestheticised. click any image to view in full.
eraser.jpgVECTOR_01
horses.jpgSCAN_02
doner.jpgMAP_03
glowrend.jpgSTUDY_04
laed.jpgTRANSMISSION_05
loyal.jpgFRAGMENT_06
overdone.jpgBREACH_07
overlooked.jpgDESTRUCTION_08
lumine.jpgMOMENTUM_09
numbpilled.jpgOVERRIDE_10
round.jpgPATH_11
sschizo.jpgSTUDY_12
GLITCH STUDIES
experiments in digital decay, malfunction as aesthetic, and beauty in breakdown.
GLITCH_ERROR_CORRUPTED_DATA_STREAM
when the system breaks down, when pixels corrupt, when meaning fragments—that's when we see what's underneath. the glitch reveals truth. the error exposes structure.
VISUAL PHILOSOPHY
every image, every composition, every visual element serves the same purpose: to document and express the experience of my individual existence, thru pain, thru love... thru obsession, and agony....these aren't decorations. they're evidence.
ELRIEL IS REAL
these are nice images, and i quite like them
ABOUT THIS COLLECTION
this gallery contains images that i find aesthetically pleasing. they're not necessarily "important" or "meaningful" in the way the other galleries are—they're just images that i enjoy looking at. sometimes beauty doesn't need to be justified.
each image has been selected for its visual qualities, color palette, composition, or emotional resonance. hover over them to see subtle ambient effects. click to view larger.
WHY THESE IMAGES?
in a world obsessed with meaning, purpose, and acceleration, sometimes it's necessary to just... appreciate. to look at something and think "that's nice" without needing to analyze it, understand it, or extract value from it.
these images represent moments of pause. fragments of beauty that caught my attention and held it. they're not part of any grand narrative—they're just images that i like.
maybe you'll like them too. or maybe not. that's the beauty of personal taste—it doesn't need to be justified, explained, or defended. it just is.
ON AESTHETIC APPRECIATION
there's something radical about appreciating something simply because it's aesthetically pleasing. in a culture that demands justification for everything—productivity, utility, meaning—pure aesthetic appreciation becomes an act of resistance.
these images don't "do" anything. they don't convey important messages. they don't document the journey. they're not evidence of acceleration. they're just... nice to look at.
and sometimes, in the relentless forward momentum, that's exactly what's needed.
GUESTBOOK
leave your mark. sign the guestbook. let me know you were here. share your thoughts, your essence, your digital footprint in this space.
sign below or visit the link directly. leave your trace in the void.
WHY SIGN?
in a world of ephemeral connections and algorithmic feeds, the guestbook is a return to something more permanent. your words stay. your presence is recorded. you become part of the archive.
this isn't social media. there's no algorithm deciding who sees what. just raw, unfiltered presence. a record that you were here, that you existed in this moment, in this space.
CONTACT
reach out thru the void. connect with other wandering souls. open lines of communication with fellow metahumans.
TRANSMISSION CHANNELS
voidrane@proton.me
for serious inquiries, collaborations, and deep discussions. response time: variable.
NEOCITIES
numbpilled.neocities.org
secondary web presence. check here for updates, new entries, and ongoing projects.
GUESTBOOK
numbpilled.atabook.org
leave your mark. share your thoughts. document your passage through this space.
IRC
TBD
real-time discussion for those who prefer synchronous communication. intermittent presence.
WHO SHOULD REACH OUT?
good fits:
- fellow wandering souls and edge-walkers
- anyone who resonates with me for any reason at all
- those interested in urban exploration and invisible infrastructure
- developers working on independent web infrastructure
- anyone pushing boundaries and breaking comfort zones
- those who recognize beauty in the liminal mundane
probably not a good fit:
- normie lame nothingness or promotional spam
- requests for conventionality
- anything that requires slowing down or massive compromising
- comfort-zone maintenance work/ unconstructive criticisms
a note on communication
response times are variable. sometimes immediate, sometimes days or weeks. This isn't personal—it's a feature of my current loadout. if your message resonates, you'll get a response. if it doesn't, the silence is the response. (typically, i always respond, though. i'm isolated, starved of interaction.)
prefer direct, honest, intense communication over polite small talk or anything too... Surface. if you have something real to say, say it. no need for preamble, unless dotted with loquaaciousness and style. (but... i will gladly shoot the shit, i can sling some words. lexicon heavy... constant superposition if u didnt notice already.)
FELLOW TRAVELERS
links to other wandering souls, fellow accelerationists, and interesting spaces on the web:
- lainchan - lets all be connected?
- agora road macintosh cafe - internets best kept secret <3
If you're another wandering soul maintaining a similar space, reach out. The network grows stronger through connection.